Stress, Anger Management and Expectations.

2020 has been a stressful year for all of us, unless of course you happen to be a billionaire but if you’re reading this blog that’s highly unlikely. We all deal with stress in different ways. Some of us keep it bottled up inside, some turn to alcohol or drugs, I used to turn to food and some people, like myself now, lose their cool and lash out on those around them. I have a short temper but I also get over things in like 5 seconds. While thats awesome for me it’s not the same for those around me. My son will be 3 in March and he’s the coolest kid and is, as he calls himself, my best buddy. I love this kid more than life itself but he also is an illogical toddler that can go from happy to insane in a split second. I haven’t been handling this as well as I should be. I’m the adult in the room and I need to act like it more. I work overnight and then have an hour commute home and then make breakfast for Miles as soon as I get home. I love doing this but it’s also stressful because Miles wants to help, which I love so much, but he needs to literally do everything and if I think of even throwing a piece of trash out or opening the refrigerator door without him it’s meltdown city. He’s a toddler though and he loves me and wants to help me. I need to do better. I want to be a better father and husband.

I was divorced from my first wife when I was 23 so I wasn‘t around as much as I would have liked to be for my oldest son. He lived with his mom and I was out playing in bands, partying and being a drunken fool. I still spent a lot of time with him and he knows I love him to death but I missed out on a lot. I did teach him how to play guitar though and he’s now better than I ever was and I was really good. I can play the victim in all of that but my attitude and the way I handled stress back then also played a role in things. I don’t want to repeat those mistakes.

On the plus side I haven’t fallen into my old stress management habits which included packs of cigarettes and mass quantities of food.

In other news, my training has been going so good lately. For those that don’t know I’m running a program by Joe Daniels called KB Only Muscle Gain. My strength is up while my weight is dropping so it’s going exactly the way I want it to go. ( www.kbmuscle.com ) On Monday I will be recording a podcast with Jordan Kunde-Wright for his Platform Podcast. ( https://open.spotify.com/show/6UFTjfvZzgjT4InfIODijX?si=q8SVMJdXQnyboa2CflWjrg )I’m super nervous as I’ve never done a podcast before but what the hell, I’ve also never done a blog before so why not?